Joanna Valente interviewed me for their #Survivor series on their website. Check it out, and please excuse my typos.
You're not stupid. You're not alone. You didn't do this to yourself and you didn't ask for it to happen. You're not a bad person for having it happen to you, you're not a bad person for talking about it, and you're not a bad person for trying to take control of your own narrative. Healing is a process and it can take a long time and you should only do what you feel is best for you in your in time.